And because it was mother who said it I'm going to write it here in my
journal, for my comforting when days of discouragement come upon me, in
which I feel that I am vain and selfish and weak and that there is no
good thing in me.
"'Rilla has developed in a wonderful fashion these past four years. She
used to be such an irresponsible young creature. She has changed into a
capable, womanly girl and she is such a comfort to me. Nan and Di have
grown a little away from me--they have been so little at home--but
Rilla has grown closer and closer to me. We are chums. I don't see how I
could have got through these terrible years without her, Gilbert.'
"There, that is just what mother said--and I feel glad--and sorry--
and proud--and humble! It's beautiful to have my mother think that
about me--but I don't deserve it quite. I'm not as good and strong as
all that. There are heaps of times when I have felt cross and impatient
and woeful and despairing. It is mother and Susan who have been this
family's backbone. But I have helped a little, I believe, and I am so
glad and thankful.
"The war news has been good right along. The French and Americans are
pushing the Germans back and back and back. Sometimes I am afraid it is
too good to last--after nearly four years of disasters one has a
feeling that this constant success is unbelievable. We don't rejoice
noisily over it.
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